Writer and artist.

Life is a story that is explained so much easier through writing,

Like the canvas to every artiste is the scenery of which they portray as their entire composition, 

Colors used to express mood and extravagant movement when the brush is linked to the canvas,

Like a pen is linked to a note pad unable to remove until done,

The hands are the most useful things you have in life they allow you to create and together with the mind make wonders come true,

A voice is not always heard, so therefore to use your own intelligence would be successful in the matter,

You do not need to be great, just have the heart that is able to unlock your mind and release such feelings. That can give you relief and given opportunity of less judgment of characteristics. 

Love or infatuation

I see the people around me

becoming engulfed by the feeling of love and infatuation

they become hurt

they become confused

they become lost...

all I can do is listen to their pain

listen

listen

somethings cannot be repaired by simple words

somethings cannot be cured by the medicine man

somethings cannot be changed by actions taken

all that can happen is to wait

but the pain of waiting is excruciating

in reality it is not simple

it is not favorable

It is heart wrenching

and indescribable

I cannot explain the pain

to be heartbroken

to be infatuated

to be as lonesome as one who is

the only one who feels enough for both

I would create a parachute to catch you when you fall

cause that's how I am

but the intensity of the fall

depends on how close you have gotten to the sky

the closer you are the longer the fall

the more lost and light headed you get

from being too far off the ground

I want to ground you and lead you towards your desire

but the need you have for your first love is overpowering

there Is another who may capture your heart

if you let it so...

I understand your mind is confused

your heart is unpredictable

but you are noble

let yourself become who you are

don't extend far heights for someone who does not appreciate you

you are far more inclined to have someone fall for you

and give the space in their heart to you

cause they truly care...

they truly love

the side of which you show to others and yourself

the glow of you

has transfixed their gaze

could you let them in and let them love

the one you are and the one others see you as

is the same

a hopeless romantic you may be

but it might be time for someone to love you back...

to be there when you need

that hand to hold and intertwine with

the warmth of a hug from someone of love

you needn't be strong forever with this love you hold onto...

the sunshine that comes after a year of rain

illuminates the happiness that has long to be discovered.... 

You have found your wings

Although the wings that have guided you have already formed,

And the light has shone brightly and warmly for your whole kindheartedly existence,

What you leave behind dear precious one is your ashes that fade at contact with each others presence,

Memoirs of literature, music, philosophy, creativity and balance,

Connecting all to your most perfect being,

This loving memory of the young fighting spirit,

Will never be lost….

It will always remain within the still frames of your wise mind and the infinite spirit that you behold at this moment,

Although life is taken at times when we wish it would not,

Although life is provided at times we say it’s too early,

The time on which these two instances occur is each a beautiful miracle,

The wings that have been formed to obtain a new existence beyond this world are the same that have obtained a new life,

With every empty shell left behind it will become the learning experience for a new soul willing to make a mark on the world,

Those wings have made you strong again, they must have,

You must be floating above the clouds,

Slowing down time as you brace for each moment,

Extending beyond heights and distances,
For you are deeply engraved in our hearts forever,

You have found your wings and we have embraced your presence,

Those wings, we will have someday and we will float above the clouds with you,

And once again we will all be together….for the light has shone for infinite lifetimes, for us it will shine one moment and that will be the most precious….

Till we meet again our radiant angel grampi,

May your spirit fly free and high with the peacefulness of the sky…

Dedicated to my Grandfather 19/11/2009

To a loved one...

The days are lonely without you here beside me

What can we do but wallow away and cry by ourselves

Morbid atmosphere reigns my subconscious

And I can still think that somewhere in the world others are in more pain than myself

Dad cries in his sleep

I can imagine his dreams with you in them

Beautiful as always...

we love you forever and ever

No matter how long you have left us for

How can I not hate the world we live in

There is no other way I can express my pain and heartache

I cannot even cry anymore

My body won't allow any feeling

My love will not even let me grieve

What else can I do?

I ask you through my translucent heart..

My father he laughs

Even through hard times he believes he is strong

But the only thing that is strong

Is the scent of liquor on his breath

Every breadth of emotion he shows through his time of unconsciousness is more sufficient than his sober state

The putrid smell of human emotion is notable at his weakest and most vulnerable...

I cannot say a word for fear of losing control

Losing grasp of my reality

Falling to the depths of insanity

What else can I do ?

Nothing...

Undoubtedly silent

No reaction

To an action taken

Even the love I withhold now cannot save me

Not matter how much he thinks he can

It is inevitable for me to escape without a trace

Without noticing

What has truly left a mark on my heart

Ashes to ashes

Stones to stones

Nothing can be reversed Or remade for fear of disturbance

Fate is fate

What we lose we gain again in another lifetime

No matter how long it takes it will come again

The day when our hearts let our body go and it doesn't become a matter of who left first but who is waiting for you beyond the gates of heaven.

Beyond anything we have known before

Beyond time and space

Beyond light and dark

Beyond girl meets boy

Love is young

Love is blind

Love is innocent

Death is life

Death is miraculous

Death is inevitable

There is no one clear answer to life, death, and love

But I can feel it all coming from you my sweet mother

You rest in heaven and i have changed so much already

Letting god take you was the hardest decision to make

I don't know why

It just was

Feeling my heart becoming more and more fuller

Was different

Could you return another day and greet us with your warming presence

Please....

I can feel your rain falling from the sky

And your breath blowing through as the wind

And your heart as the warmth of the sun

But it doesn't seem to be out at the moment..

Your tone is changing to a lite pitter patter on the roof of the house

Could you be sleeping with the clouds and in grampies arms

I do hope so with a heavy heart

Tearless eyes

Makes me feel not human :(

Grief has got me again in its grasp

I am unable to let go

Unable to return to myself

Let alone open up to others

But every time the rain comes I close my eyes and think of you always

It helps me cope

Knowing pieces of you are falling from the sky

Laying upon my open hand and I can feel you absorb in my skin

I feel your loving touch again

Thank you for returning 

Intro

Hey I'm Chanelle. I am 21 years old, living on the Gold Coast. Love travelling, music, hanging with friends and watching anime. This blog is just for me to express myself and my poetry to the world. So enjoy! :)