Betrayal for Love

The light at the end of the tunnel shines as bright as your smile,

The heart, beats like drums, to each tempo of sorrow and happiness,

The lives of two have been destined to one,

Time goes by like never before, an endless ring of nothingness,

The separation between two lovers and their lives,

Leads to betrayal and lying ways,

Two families which choose their ways, over their children’s,

A split of those who believe in the impossible to happen,  

Death breaks enemies to the desire of sadness…

You have found your wings

Although the wings that have guided you have already formed,

And the light has shone brightly and warmly for your whole kindheartedly existence,

What you leave behind dear precious one is your ashes that fade at contact with each others presence,

Memoirs of literature, music, philosophy, creativity and balance,

Connecting all to your most perfect being,

This loving memory of the young fighting spirit,

Will never be lost….

It will always remain within the still frames of your wise mind and the infinite spirit that you behold at this moment,

Although life is taken at times when we wish it would not,

Although life is provided at times we say it’s too early,

The time on which these two instances occur is each a beautiful miracle,

The wings that have been formed to obtain a new existence beyond this world are the same that have obtained a new life,

With every empty shell left behind it will become the learning experience for a new soul willing to make a mark on the world,

Those wings have made you strong again, they must have,

You must be floating above the clouds,

Slowing down time as you brace for each moment,

Extending beyond heights and distances,
For you are deeply engraved in our hearts forever,

You have found your wings and we have embraced your presence,

Those wings, we will have someday and we will float above the clouds with you,

And once again we will all be together….for the light has shone for infinite lifetimes, for us it will shine one moment and that will be the most precious….

Till we meet again our radiant angel grampi,

May your spirit fly free and high with the peacefulness of the sky…

Dedicated to my Grandfather 19/11/2009

To a loved one...

The days are lonely without you here beside me

What can we do but wallow away and cry by ourselves

Morbid atmosphere reigns my subconscious

And I can still think that somewhere in the world others are in more pain than myself

Dad cries in his sleep

I can imagine his dreams with you in them

Beautiful as always...

we love you forever and ever

No matter how long you have left us for

How can I not hate the world we live in

There is no other way I can express my pain and heartache

I cannot even cry anymore

My body won't allow any feeling

My love will not even let me grieve

What else can I do?

I ask you through my translucent heart..

My father he laughs

Even through hard times he believes he is strong

But the only thing that is strong

Is the scent of liquor on his breath

Every breadth of emotion he shows through his time of unconsciousness is more sufficient than his sober state

The putrid smell of human emotion is notable at his weakest and most vulnerable...

I cannot say a word for fear of losing control

Losing grasp of my reality

Falling to the depths of insanity

What else can I do ?

Nothing...

Undoubtedly silent

No reaction

To an action taken

Even the love I withhold now cannot save me

Not matter how much he thinks he can

It is inevitable for me to escape without a trace

Without noticing

What has truly left a mark on my heart

Ashes to ashes

Stones to stones

Nothing can be reversed Or remade for fear of disturbance

Fate is fate

What we lose we gain again in another lifetime

No matter how long it takes it will come again

The day when our hearts let our body go and it doesn't become a matter of who left first but who is waiting for you beyond the gates of heaven.

Beyond anything we have known before

Beyond time and space

Beyond light and dark

Beyond girl meets boy

Love is young

Love is blind

Love is innocent

Death is life

Death is miraculous

Death is inevitable

There is no one clear answer to life, death, and love

But I can feel it all coming from you my sweet mother

You rest in heaven and i have changed so much already

Letting god take you was the hardest decision to make

I don't know why

It just was

Feeling my heart becoming more and more fuller

Was different

Could you return another day and greet us with your warming presence

Please....

I can feel your rain falling from the sky

And your breath blowing through as the wind

And your heart as the warmth of the sun

But it doesn't seem to be out at the moment..

Your tone is changing to a lite pitter patter on the roof of the house

Could you be sleeping with the clouds and in grampies arms

I do hope so with a heavy heart

Tearless eyes

Makes me feel not human :(

Grief has got me again in its grasp

I am unable to let go

Unable to return to myself

Let alone open up to others

But every time the rain comes I close my eyes and think of you always

It helps me cope

Knowing pieces of you are falling from the sky

Laying upon my open hand and I can feel you absorb in my skin

I feel your loving touch again

Thank you for returning